REVIEW DAY 1-5
Spend two minutes contemplating each affirmation. If any one of the five affirmations appeals to you more than another, you may spend more time centering on that one.
’None of the things that my eyes and visual cortex see means what my personal ego (ahamkar), nor sense impression recorder mind (manas), has told me it does. Vibrations of thought projection that came from my subjective, separative mind distort the fact that everything is neutral and has no meaning just because it is in an apparent materialized and manifested state. Through my neutral, infinite, superconscious (intuitive) and discerning (buddhi) mind, I retract my thought projections and their impressions from the objects around me. This is my first step in allowing things to be as they are, thought and energy that has materialized.’
I don’t truly see anything that comes into my field of viewing, thus there is an absence of vision. Nothing is out there. The absence of all things material can and do not mean anything. I must embrace this in order to obtain True Perception, Christ Vision, so I can see. All of which I believe I see inhibits true sight from occurring. I will release all blocks to seeing by accepting that what I think I see is devoid of meaning. I do this so that I will be able to see truth, only truth, and be present to that of which is instead of seeking meaning in illusions and figments of my projected fantasies coming from the small ego-ahamkar mind that try to convince me of their reality, when in truth they are made up and come from oblivion.
‘I have projected all subjective-relative (mayic filtered) perceived meaning onto everything that my eyes and visual cortex see. The physical world in itself doesn’t mean anything, certainly not what my personal ego (ahamkar), nor sense impression recorder mind (manas), have told me it does. Vibrations of thought projection that came from my subjective, separative mind distort the fact that everything is neutral and has no meaning just because it is in an apparent materialized and manifested state. Through my neutral, infinite, superconscious (intuitive) and discerning (buddhi) mind, I retract my thought projections and their impressions from the objects around me that come from the blind sense mind (manas) and individualized ego (ahamkar). This is my second conscious step in allowing things to be as they are, thought and energy that has materialized due to my quantum interaction with that of which I observe. Finally, I begin the distortion correction process through detachment from all assigned meaning to things in the world I see. ’
Why do I judge what I think I see? I judge and interpret and call this seeing when it is not. Nor is it the Christed Vision coming from the Identity which I share with all of the Divine’s Sons and Daughters. If it is not True Vision, it must be a phantasm, an avidya-illusion, a false reality. This is due to the fact that my judgmental assertions and interpretations come from fear, lack, misperception, and blindness that distorts True Sight with regards to what is actually real. Today, I commit to seeing the distortions that come from judging, because in all actuality, I want to see things as they are, as the Divine Father-Mother intended them to be. I have tried to attack myself by judging and labeling and have only caused harm by doing so. In no way, whatsoever, do I want to look out trough the eyes of judgment on what is totally neutral and inherently pure, holy, and innocent.
I do not comprehend any of the things that my eyes and visual cortex see nor what my personal ego (ahamkar), nor sense impression recorder mind (manas), has told me these things are. Vibrations of thought projection that came from my subjective, separative mind distort my understanding and full knowledge of what surrounds me in their apparent materialized and manifested state. Through my neutral, infinite, superconscious (intuitive) and discerning (buddhi) mind, I retract my thought projections, their impressions, and the strong obsessive fixations that drive me to project meaning onto these things, where there is none. This delusive need leads me into a web of confusion about what I think I see and its relevance to my life motion picture that I am creating at a given moment, either through my God-like Universal Intelligence or instinctual demonic egoic-subconscious beast mind polarity.
There is no way I can understand what my eyes think they see, when I have projected the shadow and dense cloud of judgment onto everything they perceive. When I do this, I am using my eyes and ego-ahamkar to project miscreations of thought waves, coming from vritti-fluctuations in my brain. There is no way I can understand what is filtered through my eyes to the visual cortex in my brain, due to the fact that it can’t be comprehended, for what I look upon is not real. I will not waste my time trying to comprehend it. Through volition and the conscious use of will power, I release my judgments and unchain my mind from them so I can look upon what has been made manifest, know what it is, and thereby love it. Willingness is the key to unlock the prison of my split mind so only love emanates from me. Seeing without veils cast in front of my eyes, I clear the cob webs in the cellar of my mind and make a better choice. One for Love and Realization of Truth.
The thoughts I think with my separative, split, and fearful mind do not mean what the ego (ahamkar) tells me they do. Neither do the objects that surround me that I see with my eyes and visual cortex.
When I attempt to think and miscreate without being in communion with the Father-Mother, my thoughts that become forms are devoid of meaning. The thoughts with which I identify and call “mine” are phantasms and hallucinations. My True and Untainted Thoughts are those that are being extended with and from the Divine, Causal-Ideational Mind. The reason that I am not currently in a state of Realization, knowing that this is true is because my privatized thought waves have attempted to replace the mutually extended Thoughts I share with my Supernal Parents, the Primal Cause of everything Real and True. I use my will power once again, and the spirit of openness to truly see that my privatized thoughts mean nothing at all, and so I release and dissolve them, removing any perceived power I thought they had over me or anyone else. Holy Spirit Mother, I seek discernment and guidance now. I surrender my private thoughts and ask you to undo them, for I no longer want them to replace our mutual Thoughts. My privatized thoughts have no meaning at all, but using Thought for the purpose of creation or the act of extension happens with ease through my communion and awareness of my oneness with Divinity. This is my only goal today and everyday.
When I am upset, it is because my subconscious, subjective mind fragments misinterpret reality and are intruding upon Radical Right Perception, thus creating rifts and whirlpools of brain activity leading to massive hallucinations and projections out onto the world. The emotionally charged distortions are part of the reactive process gone haywire in the flow of my astral, spinal currents, spiraling down into misery of my own making.
I am never upset, nor agitated, anxious, or angry for the perceived reasons I think I should and can be disturbed because I am constantly applying effort to defend and protect my privatized thought waves. Why do I try so hard to give them justification through what my ego-ahamkar calls truth? When I take a step back, I can see that I demonize all things so I can try to validate my rage and thereby defend my use of mental, emotional, or physical violence. I pray for Realization, so that I can see the degree to which I have distorted the purpose of everything I have perceived through my ego-ahamkar by defining what I think those things are for. The only reason I have put so much time and energy into defending my distorted, dark emotions that stem from fear is because I ultimately wanted to keep my private false-self in bondage and chained to hallucinations. I consciously release my reactivity and all the misery I have miscreated from the depths of my subconscious mind-field. Mother Kundalini, Holy Spirit Fire, rise up, so that I may ascend out of the dungeon of psychological, emotional, neurological, and biological disturbance into the Bliss of acceptance, found in Pure Spirit and Light.
(Inspired by but not limited to A Course in Miracles Teachings (1st Edition), Mind Science, New Thought, Metaphysics, Yogic Philosophy, Quantum Physics, Eastern Thought, and writings by Paramahansa Yogananda)